Adventure is out there!

Well tonight is my last night in my own bed for 3 weeks. Feel really sad at the moment, i find it really hard to think of things i'm gaining, just of things i'm saying goodbye to, My Dad, Jeffery, Ralph, all my own things, my books, my films, my jewellery, i suppose they are all just shields to hide behind. For me, packing for a trip is like when people say "what would you take if your house was on fire?", i've spent my whole life collecting all of this stuff around me, it's hard to know what's important. I suppose none of it is really.
Had a really lovely day with my Dad today, we went to see "UP" at the cinema, so i feel pretty sad about not seeing him for a while. I know it may seem really silly to some people, but when you're going through what i've been going through for the past four years you develop a support, a way of coping. My family and friends have been key to that, and this trip is going to be a real test for me. Went out with Sari & Charlie on Tuesday night to the Piano Bar for Bon Voyage cocktails. Sari is leaving for 3 months in South America next month, and Charlie is going to stay with her for New Year. It was a really nice way of saying "See Ya Later".

Last week i ordered two t-shirts from Every Little Counts (http://www.everylittlecounts.net/) to be delivered to Rachel's house in Capitola, so i'm really looking forward to receiving them. Wish i could have ordered more, i really love their clothes.

 

Right, i had better get back to packing, Jeff is trying to climb into my suit case, and they way i'm feeling i might just let her!

"I don't ever remember feeling this awake"

I haven't written in a long time cause i've been ill, first with the flu and then a cold. Today is the first day of feeling better, and although i'm still pretty poorly i can't stop smiling because it feels so good to feel better! I had an amazing time in Brighton with Arianne. Bat For Lashes were amazing, Natasha Kahn was so cute, i could have just put her in a little box and taken her home. Her voice was really incredible, i was blown away.
Unfortunately i still haven't worked out how to use my new camera, so my photo's were pretty shoddy.

After the gig we rang my brother, and met up with him and his mates for a few drinks before heading upstairs to a brilliant club that played amazing music like Blondie and The Cure, as well as Blur and more current stuff. Arianne and i had so much fun, but a bit too much to drink! Met a really nice guy as well, which was fun. Got a cute picture of me and my intoxicated sibling!

Felt so hung-over in the morning, but Arianne was bright as a button! So unfair! Managed to spend a lovely day shopping, although i had to stop frequently for caffeine and to reply to texts from guy from previous night. Got the train home in the evening but got stranded at Gatwick Airport for an hour, so we spent too much time giggling like school girls at people trying to get baggage trolleys on the escalators - so naughty! Brilliant weekend.

Haven't really been up to much else, went for a drink with some of the guys from my therapy group which was nice, it's good to have people who can relate, we feel like a real little team. Fell in love with a hooded cardigan from Gap's body range that feels amazing, so mum bought it for me to cheer me up (i'm so spoilt!)it's now my writing jumper for wearing over pretty knee high bed socks and grey pants whilst i write in my journal before bed. Countdown down till California trip - 9 Days - Scary!