Friday 29 January 2010

Just Like A Pill

So this is the first post of the new year for me, for boring reasons which i won't go into. So far the year has been pretty busy, difficult, silly, dramatic, snowy, tiring, frustrating and confronting.

I've started some individual psychotherapy, which has been really tough, but i can see a little bit clearer now. I don't feel any better, but i can see how i can use the therapy to help me a little better. It wasn't until this week that I realised, the whole time i have been ill i thought i had to be strong to get better, but perhaps i need to be vulnerable, show how i really feel, let someone in enough to help.

I had a pretty manic New Year in our nations capital. I went to an Alice in Wonderland themed night at a night club in Covent Garden. It was a good laugh, but tough on my friends who were working through some pretty emotional issues that the drink didn't help to say the least! Anyways, it gave me a good excuse to don a pair of fluffy white rabbit years and a pocket watch!

Rachel, Evie & Ned are coming over to the UK for 2 weeks in February, and i am so excited. I miss them so much. California was such a happy time for me, and i can't wait to spend some time with my little niece again. I’m throwing Rachel & Evie a ladies tea party whilst they are here, I’m looking forward to planning it all and buying gorgeous napkins and cakes. I bought a really pretty dress off asos.com to wear as well :-)

I'm feeling like i really need to shake things up at the moment, like I’m re-creating myself. I want to buy some new clothes, get a new haircut, join a dance class and force myself to do some things I’d normally say no to.